a typical friday night in this "city"

So here I am sitting on my friend Julia's huge ass computer, wondering what in the hell I am doing with my life.

I am 18 years old, cheering on a game of beer pong.

While some of my fellow peers are fighting for our freedom in an unnecessary war. In my own opinion of course.

So what can I do as a teenager who's voice is usually hushed or ignored?

Can I make a moving song? Lead an inspirational seminar?

NO, because nobody would listen. and that's okay.

I have learned to accept my role in society. I am a teenager, whose point of view has no impact on the world, and that's okay. I suppose.

Although sometimes I question whether the people we are taught to listen to, follow and advocate for are really in the same boat as me....

are they wondering whether anyone listens? are they secretly hoping not to be judged? or are they pulling bull-shit out of their butts...

I really do not know, but I have learned to move along, and not ask questions. Those that ponder and question the unknown never end up happy...

So now at this present moment I am counting down the days until I am free from the protective glares of my mother. I want to get "crunk" every night, and not worry about making up excuses to placate my mom. And that is what is expected of me. and I guess that's okay.

I will continue to do what others think I should, for now.

I will not question authority, because it never turns out positively, for now.

But one day I WILL stand up for what I believe in, and conquer the world.

Until then I will be content with the 8 people that have read my blog and try to understand what in the hell I am ranting about...

THANKS Y'ALL <333